Okay So this is me, don't like it, then don't read it.
This is me. If you were expecting someone else, sorry for ya. I am me, I don’t live to please anyone. I am a self respecting independent woman. I love my family, my mother and I live together because I am her caregiver. I love to have fun. I am no angel, I do have my naughty side, but I know when to be serious.
Christmas Card
So this is the Christmas card that I sent for me and my mom in 2012. She was in the hospital during November and December, so we didn't have time to get anything out. With that in mind I took an older picture of me and my mom and a picture of our Christmas tree and put together a cute little Christmas card.
A Touch Of Life
Coming from a mixed ancestry, you learn the different touches of life. You learn how your people came to be, how your people decided to live, and even how they died. The further back you look the more you see. I, myself, am part Cherokee (princess which can mean either a Chief's daughter or a Beloved Woman......When I heard of this I found out it was actually both. Since I had someone that wanted to try to accuse me as a liar I decided to translate for everyone.), Dutch, Polish, Irish, Scottish, and Spanish. I grew up being called many thing, but not caring. I was harassed in school because I was not one color or another. That touched my life in a bad way. I know life is not always easy and never has been. Life is hard as hell and for those of you that believe otherwise, I would love to know what you have been smoking! I am a Southern Baptist, but I was also raised to believe in the power and magic of the Cherokee and Irish people. The power of the earth and the Celtic people. I live in the Bible belt, but I do not judge anyone, it is not my job to. I know I have done some pretty stupid things in my life and I know I won’t stop doing stupid things until the day that I die.
God put me on this Earth to do what he wants me to do and that also means learning from my stupid mistakes. I look at old relationships as learning tools, not mistakes, if they were not meant to be in my life for some reason or another then I would never had met them.
Recently my life has been touched in a different way. I have become disabled and find it hard to live my life. I use to be so energetic and outgoing. I use to dance all the time, but no longer can. I use to write poetry and short stories, but have trouble concentrating. Now I’m still into various music and movies and even t.v. shows. I’m not as social as I use to be because I’m afraid I will go out in public and have a seizure and I hate for people to feel sorry for me.
A touch of life can be anything that affects you or those that you love. I love my family dearly and would die for them. I love my friends extremely, Tobi, Jonathan, Kristine, Victoria. They are great people and I wouldn’t trade them for the world.
So before you look at your life and think, “OH HELL, what did I do this time”, take a minute and look at how it affects you and those you love and realize that it is something that you can learn from.
God put me on this Earth to do what he wants me to do and that also means learning from my stupid mistakes. I look at old relationships as learning tools, not mistakes, if they were not meant to be in my life for some reason or another then I would never had met them.
Recently my life has been touched in a different way. I have become disabled and find it hard to live my life. I use to be so energetic and outgoing. I use to dance all the time, but no longer can. I use to write poetry and short stories, but have trouble concentrating. Now I’m still into various music and movies and even t.v. shows. I’m not as social as I use to be because I’m afraid I will go out in public and have a seizure and I hate for people to feel sorry for me.
A touch of life can be anything that affects you or those that you love. I love my family dearly and would die for them. I love my friends extremely, Tobi, Jonathan, Kristine, Victoria. They are great people and I wouldn’t trade them for the world.
So before you look at your life and think, “OH HELL, what did I do this time”, take a minute and look at how it affects you and those you love and realize that it is something that you can learn from.
“Never come between a woman and chocolate, unless she is holding a Hershey bar and you have Godiva’s.”
My rules.....
“Ask me no questions, I will tell you no lies. Love me for who I am and not for who you wish I was. If you promise to protect me I will give you my heart.”
Never think that just because we may have forgiven something that you did means that we will ever forget it.
Don't take us for granite.
Once upon a girl
Such a shy girl is how she started. Being there and doing for all others and putting herself last. She was a young girl that thought it was easier to make others happy, instead of herself. She slowly, very slowly, grew out of this. She started to fight back when a fight was brought to her. It was not what others thought of her or were familiar with.
The familiar, shy, girl that everyone once knew was gone. The changes were triggered by good events, they were extremely hurtful and scary. The events were so dramatic that the girl went to school with bruises and in pain all of the time. She became scared of everyone around her, including her friends. You would think that people would try to help when they saw a black eye here or a large bruise there. Maybe even say something when they saw her wearing jeans in the hottest of months.
Things became worse as the years progressed, she was no longer that loving girl that everyone once knew. She had become something that had even started to scare her. All the pain she had become familiar with, she was now starting to put back on herself. She would not talk to her friends anymore, because she felt like she had been betrayed. She couldn’t understand why no one had helped.
Matters turned around one night when the one that was hurting her was chased away by a gun. The girl had enough and fought back with all of her ability, she cut the person, and she almost shot him, until he ran away.
After all of that the girl and her mother were finally out of the painful relationship and doing fine for themselves. It does still get to her at times, but then she remembers she was finally able to stand up for herself and get rid of him permanently.
That shy girl might be gone and a stronger one has taken her place, but she has learned that it wasn’t the fault of her friends or anyone else. Friends had told their parents and they didn’t call for help, but it was during a time when there was noting done. At least times have changed and children are protected.
There is even help for those that did go through that when they were young. The biggest help is the family and friends that she has, regardless of them being in the same city or a million miles away.
The familiar, shy, girl that everyone once knew was gone. The changes were triggered by good events, they were extremely hurtful and scary. The events were so dramatic that the girl went to school with bruises and in pain all of the time. She became scared of everyone around her, including her friends. You would think that people would try to help when they saw a black eye here or a large bruise there. Maybe even say something when they saw her wearing jeans in the hottest of months.
Things became worse as the years progressed, she was no longer that loving girl that everyone once knew. She had become something that had even started to scare her. All the pain she had become familiar with, she was now starting to put back on herself. She would not talk to her friends anymore, because she felt like she had been betrayed. She couldn’t understand why no one had helped.
Matters turned around one night when the one that was hurting her was chased away by a gun. The girl had enough and fought back with all of her ability, she cut the person, and she almost shot him, until he ran away.
After all of that the girl and her mother were finally out of the painful relationship and doing fine for themselves. It does still get to her at times, but then she remembers she was finally able to stand up for herself and get rid of him permanently.
That shy girl might be gone and a stronger one has taken her place, but she has learned that it wasn’t the fault of her friends or anyone else. Friends had told their parents and they didn’t call for help, but it was during a time when there was noting done. At least times have changed and children are protected.
There is even help for those that did go through that when they were young. The biggest help is the family and friends that she has, regardless of them being in the same city or a million miles away.
Once upon a girl in love
You would think it would be easy to be in love. But it hurts so bad. I thought he loved me, he told me he did, he acted like he did. At least that was until I went to his place one time and my ex-best friend was there and came out of his room in a t-shirt and hopefully her panties. I didn’t stick around to ask. He chased me out the door and said he was so sorry, he got down on his knees and grabbed a hold of me and tried to change my mind. He tried telling me he was drunk, I told him yeah, like you are all the time. I thought he was going to get help for the drinking, what he really needed help with was keeping it in his pants. She came out dressed and walked past me to her car asking him why he was being such an idiot. I told her cause he knows you are nothing but a whore who doesn’t even know the name of the father to any of her kids and I’m the one that would have been there regardless and has been there. I’m the one that would take care of his child when he had her for visits. I said that is okay though, this told me what I needed to know about both of you. He is nothing but a piece of shit and you are nothing but a whore who will open your legs for anyone.